Since Chinese new year till now, i have been ignored you till now.
i seriously angry and not happy all days. I just hate you.
I always think about how you treat me. Not so bad, but sometimes find it disgusting..
Do you know when you throw me tempered n lie me blindly because of her I started wondering what's relationship between you and her. Though you always say nothing, but delete message every time. But in mind, i feel there's something. So, i don't want to be unfair. I want to leave.
Sometimes, I find myself no pride. Why you can just take me for granted? Though next day i will be fine, but things accumulate i will get burst. I hate myself indeed. Why I don't treat it as nothing? Because i need someone to be pampered, to be cared and loved. So, i don't like being scolded and lied.
when time goes by...I want to love myself rather than unhappy because of my bf not appreciate and not respect me sometimes. I feel bad..i feel failure..When i leave you alone, being cruelty..i really unhappy. I don't wish to see you unhappy because of me. After all things, why should i concern your feeling instead of making myself unhappy? i want you feel me! I want you pay attention on me! I just want to find argument..!!!
I think i shouldn't dating,because i no longer trust you and believe in u. I can not put trust on you.
As i know i not easier involve a relationship because of my personality and thought. To me, love isn't beautiful at all after my first date. Me and you, be friend better than boy friend.
I think i should be alone, then i will happy.. i don't need worry so much. i don't need worry you lie me or not.. i don't need care whether you care me or not..i don't need mind why you throw me tempered.. Actually love isn't right or wrong...though you not caring n like others do..but you really honest & loyal to me.. However, don't know since when i find honest & loyal has gone... how??? i really don't know how...i felt complicated.
My mind is all about u and her. I cant stop thinking about that. Maybe i really afraid you lie me. I rather you be honest and let me figure out both of you are having affair then i will be happier and release..As i say, If you two really like each other, just go ahead. But just let me know ,i will not mind.. I seriously hate people lie, especially you two ! Don't make me feel like both of you acting like nothing, stranger. Actually very close, super close.
i very suffer! Just like my mother suspect my father. My mother caught him SMS a lady. Called her as 'BABE, I WILL FIND WAY TO SOLVE YOUR FINANCIAL PROBLEM.' My father can just open eye wide and lie my mother! I started feeling sick of world. I will not give you a chance to lie me onward. I will not listen even you explain. I just want to be myself. I'm not silly, i want to be real and realistic. I don't wish you are same as other guy or father! Thought every lie is beautiful ! In fact its not. All is my problem. Please, fulfill my wish !
Be friend forever. We can be very good friend instead of bf/gf. Trust me. I don't wish to lose you as a friend, i can lose you as a bf.
