..My Birthday..

time fliess..23 yrs old ady..:) happie birthday to myself..
although my birthday nth special and same as yearly.. but its real meaninful to me this year, because im havin u..Thank you my dear..i appreciated what u do for me..if theres a handmade card for me i'll feel more sweet than a gift..we are just began, so if we posible to maintain our relationship, i knw i will get lots gift from ya..
i knew ya tryin to make me happie durin my bday while u busy with your stuff..say no gift for me, fel so sory? i understand one.. as what i said we just began,im alrite about it..:)

today i felt sad when u told me about joyc stuff..im not angry and unhappie, but i fel sad..
Actualy its in my expectation,tats wat i hav been worryin.. joy n bren are my best budd no matter hows their attitude, i can take it, if theres no return, it doesnt really important 2 me anyway.. thus, i really care about her feelin.. when she know we together, i thik she wil stil sad even though she has bf alredy..but to you, u might nt understand n thik why she has bf ady stil wanto b like that.. just like u dont understand why tat time she got u ady stil make out with des.. because we really care about it..
you told me last time n also today she mentioned it, u guys had argument because of me..i was fel like so sorry..because u are her bf tat time, i dont hope myself exist ya relationship, so i always tried to avoid it matter, ask u to side her no matter you personally thik right or wrong..till today,she knew we together, i can felt her hardfeelin in heart..she must be hesitatin and thikin, whether tat time u like me? i dont wish she thik you are this kind of person, i felt heartache and uneasy..i dont wish to hurt her feelin..

When you said to me that in car, how about my feeling(u was so fierce).. u shuld know,i was tellin you about myself n joy doesnt include u..last time she hurted u and u get hurted, dint include me as well..
firstly, i treat her as my good budd,i care her feelin alots..i feel sorry to her..i guess herself cant even accept why her good budd date with my ex? is it he liked her long long ago tats why side her? secondly, i was the middleman when u guys broke up.. shes the one ask me to console u, tel u tat she bad..in my point of view i really thik she not deserve to hav u, i told u tat rite..
u know..today i together with you, i just dontknow why i fel bad on myself.. like make you two aparted.. and now i got you...i dont have fault u know.. i nv expected we can be couple and can be so lovely... why she would thik and say it to you? it meant she mind.. when u told me tat she tears drop.. i fel so sad.. i hurted someone tat i so care about....

Sorry for not concern ya feelin..i know we shuld face about the problem, but i really fel bad..