do i?

do i mean it when i say i miss you?
sometimes i dont know whether i miss you or not..
just feel lacking of sth when u not around me...occupied my life perhapss..

althought we are getting closer..undoubtedly,i kept asking myself..should we go further?
sometimes appear alots question on my mind...thus, i nv take this relationship seriously..
maybe i really lack of security toward you guys..sorry..
i cant bear tht people lie on me or treat me as stupid.. just lil lie i also not allow.. tats me..
Like that be friend or be gf/bf better? im askin myself..

today question in my mind is..
we getting closer.. would u still meet net gfriend..and hide from me?
if u do so..i dont do..it seem stupid rite...but i cant make it..

pls find a way to prove me u are not...