Then and Now...

i have been quite long never crie badly..since my first relationship 8yrs back..
why these day cried so often..?
i should fel sweet when i be with u,why tears just in my eye when i thik about u and me..
its reason why i really scare to be in love..without love,i dont feel sad..without love,i feel free..
without love,i wont hurt ur feelin..without love,i wont be like tat.. its all about LOVE..

whenever you say i love you,i was hopin i can speak out i love you easily..but i feel its hard..
it doesnt mean i dont love you.. for me..'i love you' is define as promise..love you wholeheartedly without hesitating..i just dont hav guts to say so...so i always say to myself..as sure as fate..

actualy we consider as couple if u admite..altot we always askin wat are we right now... we just dont hav comitment..
why tis relationship sound so bad...

im not a strong woman,tats why i always hopin someone who stronger than me to guide/protect me..it doesnt mean u are not, if u wilin to.. u can be tat person..
but somehow u say u not suits me..i feel so depressed..why cant you even give me a sense of confident and security? so i hesitating again...and starte to thik that actualy u din lov me as much as u said..

dear..remember if someday i leave u, it doesnt mean i dont love you..
its because we are more comfortable to be friend..
its because my problem, not yours..
its because i couldnt overcome and cant even visualize our future..
its because our love not fully built..it breaks easily..

its hard to let it go..but we have to...in case we argue and find it unhappie/troublesome in future..
i know say easier than do.. you n me may find it tough to go thru, just in short while perhaps..but our sweet memories will be there always...